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January 17 Tropical Night 12Jan07It turned out less boring than expected. Besides the cordial conversations between departments that rarely (maybe I am only speaking for myself), I saw more casual interactions and jokes between one another.
The highlight of the night was not the best dressed or Mr and Miss AnXXXXX. It was our VP's speech congratulating everyone that our company is doing well on the whole as a region. The question about how much bonus would we all be rewarded come end March. But we behaved in the most politically correct manner ... smiled quietly. Some nodding the head.
Not many came dressed to the theme of the night. In comparison, I became somewhat a little "over-dressed". But well, I had fun and the assurance of prospective rewards in monetary terms brought me into the weekend with a really better mood.
January 11 CursedI beg for Salvation. A curse has descended on me. My mind is filled with Projects related to work, management of inventory levels and turns. Yes. It must be a curse. Detaching my physical and mental self from work is getting difficult. Copper cables, racks, patch cords fill up 50% of my daily lingo. Reduced to a slave. Peon. If there is a God. HELP ME! BuzzHad wanted to leave for home on time today. To either go for a jog or relax or simply spend more time with my family. Easier said then done. With piles of outstanding projects to go through, the mind won the battle over my heart. So here I am, still in the office. Would probably be here for two hours more .. at least
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Could it be anaemia? I get giddy easily these days. Quite often in a state of lethargy.
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Aung is at St Andrews today ... again. And probably the whole of tomorrow. I am no longer as supportive of this volunteering spirit of his as in the past. I don't see much example set by his seniors in the spirit of sacrifice .. be it time or money .. in this arena. And I don't see why he must be so obliged to serve even when, at times, he truly does not feel like doing. But I am choosing to let him be. So I am no longer that sweet nice girl who would wait at the school for hours for him to finish. Ya .. I am just getting real.
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Since the putting off of wedding last year end. I seem to have entered another paradigm. Maybe the excitement is over. I no longer feel any rush to get married. In fact, the current state of free and easy really suit my taste and lifestyle. Am I being fickle-minded? Should I not be too old to be so fickle-minded?
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Company dinner tomorrow.
The notion of dining with a whole bunch of people you work with day in and out is not very appealing to me.
But then .. It's a company dinner.
It is more politically correct to appear at such functions.
So I will go.
Somewhat reluctantly.
Am I anti-social?
Or just tired?
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Somewhat depressed.
Don't know why.
A state of melancholy is just not me.
More naturally cheery and chirpy.
Maybe time will soon reveal the answer at its very own pace.
Meanwhile, I do find in Solitude much solace.
 January 09 Life of Pi Just started reading this book. Actually this was a gift for Aung from his university friends for his birthday. Written with much spiritual insight. A look at things from a very different angle. Enough to draw my attention from my PSP.Life's IdiosyncrosiesI am often in a contemplative mood at the beginning of the year. Pondering over what happened in the year that passed. Brooding over broken resolutions. Attempting to set more resolutions for the new year. Re-living the moments of joy or sadness in the past year. It's like pressing the rewind button and then the play button in slow mode.
It has not been a very good year for me. 2006. Full of stress. Unexpected Changes. Tears. A year that trained me in the arena of quiet determination and endurance. Definitely not one that I would want to go through again.
You win some. You lose some. So I have learnt.
I used to believe in a diplomatic workplace where everyone contribute and work like a team. Cordial. Helpful. Win-Win for all. Now I think I am naive to have believed such a workplace would even exist or be stable (in chemistry terms) in the world today. 2006 taught me to wake up. I am 35yrs old. Old enough to know the realities of working life ... and most importantly ... to accept and survive in it.
... to be continued .. January 06 New MeNew Year.
No Resolutions.
New Hair Style.
Empty My Emotional Toxic.
Learn to Forget.
Try to Take it Easy.
Better My Yoga.
Live One Day at a time.
& (shooo... don't tell my mum) ... Lose some Weight
January 05 Lookback2006 .. filled with surprises, tears, stressful moments, reunions, unexpected turns in life. I am glad that 2006 is over.
No resolution for 2007. No long hours of reflection of what went right or wrong. At 35, I have come to realize that right or wrong very much depends on where you are standing.
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